Psycho Killers

Had a psych eval regarding the pending surgery. I fear she is not going to recommend me for the WLS. The lady shrink asked if my husband was going to support me during and after, I burst into tears. I shared with her what an asshole he is and I would be lucky if he would help. She advised that I should see a therapist to learn how to cope with the jerk. I am trying to find a suitable psychologist now, but HMO's suck. So hard to find someone decent.

I am afraid of the future. Honestly, I am too lazy to leave him. Hell, my previous boyfriend broke up with me, because I was either too lazy or too afraid to do it. I knew for about nine months that we were going nowhere, but I let him do the dirty work.

Now it comes to this. Granted, he is only an asshole 25% of the time. Doesn't sound all that bad, but when the other 75% is spent working, sleeping, etc., it means he is an asshole all the time! LMAO

I wish he would consider counseling.

Anyroad, the doc said this is not a fix-it miracle. It is only a tool to incorporate with careful eating habits and exercise. "Surgery is an unnecessary risk if your are not willing to commit." So, I am still nervous that she is going to shoot me down.

I have one more doctor's appointment and then the whole thing gets sent to the insurance company. I will hear in four to five weeks if I am approved then they will schedule me for the surgery.