Month five -

All I want for Christmas......

........is to lose 75+ more pounds.

Month five - 264

Two more pounds! Can you freeking believe it? I have lost 82 pounds.

I live on popsicles, protein shakes (when I remember to make them), fresh fruit, fresh and cooked veggies, ground meats, baked potatoes, soup, and deconstructed food (e.g. sandwiches without the bread/bun, pizza toppings without the crust). Bread is just a waste of space. I will take a bite of sandwich/pizza with the crust or bun, to get the real sensation, but then I just eat the filling or topping. Kinda tastes better without all the extra "padding."

Month four - 266 HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

80 pounds. I have lost 80 pounds in four months. And I can get my fat butt into a size 24 jean. See proof below:

I didn't think I would get to size 24 before Christmas.

We went to cousins' house for Thanksgiving dinner. I ate his mashed potatoes and hubby's cranberry sauce. That is ALL I ate for dinner. I didn't want to waste stomach space on turkey!

I am thankful for finding chewable vitamins at Trader Joe's that I can stomach.

Month four - 269

Fatties and movement

Found my reason to why I don't exercise.....Think it will fly?

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I also found an interesting site for fatties like me....
Kelly Bliss' Plus Size Yellow Pages

Month four - 269 BOOYAH!

77 POUNDS!!! Yeah, that is the same tank top in both pics. I apologize for the manic smile. Someone told me I needed to smile in my pictures and not look so pissed off. I would rather look pissed off than looney tunes.

Anyway........ 77 pounds.....I don't see much of a difference......Boo-wha-hahahahahaha

EDITOR'S NOTE.....That is LMAO-type laughter, not tears of sadness by the author. She is totally amazed by her transformation. Just walking around or doing daily errands, she feels energetic and SEXY!

Month four - 272 SUGAR IS EVIL

That's right, sugar is EVIL! I have been eating a piece of candy here and a piece of candy there. And all it does is make my stomach upset. Now, when I look at candy, my stomach starts to churn. I don't even have to swallow the candy before I start feeling weird now.

I experimented last night. I chewed on a mini Butterfinger and spit it out. The thought of swallowing it made my tummy turn. Then I tried a Snickers "fun size," (which I did not find very satisfying) and a Twix mini. All were spat out into the trash can.

The kids and I made cookie candy bars two days ago. We wrapped sugar cookie dough around our favorite candies and baked them in the oven. Viola! Candy in a cookie! I couldn't eat those either. Not even an infinitesimal nibble.

Truly, I find those No sugar added frozen fruit bars to be the best. And Sugar-free Fudgesicles. Get my chocolate fix and not a stroke.

Oh, and I have lost a total of 74 POUNDS. Nothing big.
*shugs shoulders*
Are you friggin kidding me?!?!?!? I am on cloud nine. I have been humming practically everyday for over a week now. It is like being infatuated with someone. Every day is a song and a smile.

We (the fam) went to our cousin's house yesterday to celebrate Veteran's Day (read:get drunk and socialize). This was the first time I have seen our cousins since I have had the surgery. I expected rave reviews from his wife, but HE also paid me a complement when I showed up at the door. "You look good," he commented. Little shivers shot through me. He is not a man of many words and for him to say ANYTHING to me seems extraordinary! That put a BIG smile on my face.

This was also the first time I didn't drink when hanging out with her. Or smoke. She apparently quit smoking 5 (or six?) weeks ago. Knowing me and my triggers, I thought for sure she would start drinking, and having me present, would trigger her craving for a smoke. But she didn't....And I didn't....That was pretty cool. I did smell her Apple Martini and my stomach flopped over. Just the smell was enough to give me ill feelings. Hubby drank 17 beers. He drank (and threw up) enough for the both of us.

So, I indulged in a couple of tortilla chips and guacamole instead. Literally, two chips and guac. I also did sample some potato chips and that was about as wild as I got yesterday. Woo! Walking on the edge with salty snack food!

This morning, I made tuna salad with fish, FF mayo and dill relish. Instead of smearing it on a slice of bread, I tore up the bread into tiny pieces and stirred it into the tuna. Took me over an hour to eat it and I am still full from my experiment! Very thirsty, but not craving food. And I still need to take my supplements for the day. My biggest problem with the supplements is the vitamins. I don't remember if I have mentioned this before, and frankly I am too lazy to look it up, but the vitamins make my tummy clench. I have a real hard time eating them and not think I am going to dry heave them. But I can't NOT take them! I have to in order to stay healthy! Ugh. Blech. Yuk.

But remember......SUGAR IS EVIL!

Month four - 275

SEVENTY ONE POUNDS!

I have lost 71 pounds in little over three months. That is my official weight as of Halloween. I was on cloud 9 aaaaalllllllll day. I walk differently, stand differently. Damn, I think I am hot! LOL

Okay, I am not hot. I still have 75+ pounds to go. I will be happy at 190, but would love to see 175. If it happens.....whatever. As long as I am under 200, I will be stoked.

We went for tricks or treats around the neighborhood. I was able to keep up with the kids. In fact, they tired out before I did. Then again, I wasn't running from sidewalk to door to sidewalk to the next house to the door to the sidewalk. They probably did two or three times the distance I actually did!

I admit, I have been chipping at the Halloween candy. But I can only have a "fun size" piece of chocolate. That puts me at my sugar intake limit. Get that weird feeling I have talked about before. What great insurance! Eat more than I am supposed to and I get sick. Therefore, I am afraid to eat more than I should. Of course, I could alleviate all of that and NOT eat sugar, but why!??!

Still having a hard time eating in a table setting. Feel the need to keep up with the pack. Much easier by myself with a distraction. Hell, I can get full just tasting what I am preparing! Little lick there, little bite here.

OMG! I found THE MOST FABULOUS tea at Whole Foods Market . It is called INKO's and tastes sooooooo good. I find it to be very refreshing and I don't miss soda when I drink it. It is available in nine amazing flavors: Honeydew, Blueberry, Mint, Peach, Apricot, Cherry Vanilla, Honeysuckle, Lychee and Original. Need to go stock up on that stuff....

After experimenting with the Halloween candy, I find that I keep going back to frozen fruit bars and popsicles, especially Dreyer's No-Sugar Added Fruit Bars. They curb my carb craving and refresh (hydrate) at the same time. And they have never caused me any nausea. Can't get any better than that!