Wow. Been almost a month since I have put pen to paper or, in this case, fingers to keyboard. I have had my ups and downs, my highs and lows, my wins and losses. Speed eating is still a problem for me. And it is not even speedy. It is "normal" bite, chew, chew, chew, chew, swallow, bite, chew, chew, chew, swallow. I have to train myself to bite. chew. chew. chew. chew........chew. chew. chew. swallow. STOP. take a break. look at the sights. talk to a friend. do a crossword puzzle. do my nails. bite. chew. chew. chew. chew.......
I mean, who eats like this!??!?! I do find that I can take my time if I watch TV and eat. Believe it or not. That is one of the things dietitians and nutritionists scream about! DO NOT EAT IN FRONT OF THE TV. You will shovel it down and not be aware of your consumption! Well, I find it entertains me instead of the food. Think about it. You are sitting at a table with the family and they are eating "normally." You bite, put down your fork, chew your food to dust and must wait before taking another bite. While everybody is busy stuffing their faces (in a normal manner), you get bored watching them. So you eat another bite. Pretty soon, you eat more than you intended and and pay bloody hell for it. (Dumping or just plain nausea.)
When I sit in front of the telly, I take a bite. Put the food down (on a table or something) and get comfortable. Watch a little boob toob, find my trough (bowl, plate, whatever) and have another bite. Perfect. I recognize the full feeling immediately and don't overeat, thereby making myself sick.
Here are my bad tricks:
M & M's: Eat one at a time until I feel "weird" (that is the sugar telling me to STOP)
Chocolate Cake: Consume right before bed so I can sleep off any bad physical feelings, but feel guilty in the morning....Like a one-night stand!
Gelato: Either eat "samples" or buy a small cup and eat until I feel weird and pass it off to someone else.
Soda: Shake it until that carbonation is mostly gone and drink. Tried it with Coca Cola Classic and found it to be dangerous. Too much sugar! Coke Zero works much better. hee hee
Candy bar: take nibbles until weird feeling appears and give bar to kids.
However, I have found some good food choices, too......
SALAD! (or as my kids call it: lettuces) Chew into oblivion. Breaks down more easily than protein (eg meat, chicken, pork) and can generally eat it normally.
Tomatoes, basalmic vinegar and salt. YUM!
Baked potatoes. Broccoli and cheese. Fat free sour cream. NO skin. And Sweet potatoes, plain, no skin.
Fruit. Especially watermellon. Sweet, tasty and basically water! Can eat "normally."
Been lacking in the photo department, too. But I managed to snap off a couple of shots. I still see FAT GIRL. I have lost over 60 pounds and all I see is fat Fat FAT!! See for yourself:
I have not worn those jeans for almost two years. I can put on a bra on the middle hooks that I haven't worn in a looooooooooooong time. My underpants are getting big. And the "jeans" I have had to wear prior to surgery are no longer sung. In fact, they are getting quite loose.
I admit it. It is nice to be baggy instead of screaming tight. Fooling myself that I can wear a particular size if it is a knit (eg pants, shirts made from t-shirt material or jersey).
Oh! Yesterday, I was all jazzed. I was going to try on a pair of pants that I bought a year ago (foolishly thinking I would fit in this size). Excitedly, I grabbed the pants from their hanger and double checked the size. Not only was it one size smaller than I thought I purchased, they were a PETITE! Hello!?! I am 5'8"! I am NOT petite. Sadly, I tossed them to the back of the closet (in the "I will get to that later" pile) and put on my jeans. Damn. I guess I didn't check the label and went by the tag or the hanger size. Like not double checking the expiry date on food when you buy it only to go home and throw it away because it was two days past.
Oh! And I got to wear a jean skirt to church that I haven't seen in quite awhile. I paired it with one of my husbands old dress shirts and some cute peek-a-boo mule heels. One of my sunday school student's told me (in a fit of anger) "You are not beautiful!" I took it as a complement. He is four. I will take it anyway.
I mean, who eats like this!??!?! I do find that I can take my time if I watch TV and eat. Believe it or not. That is one of the things dietitians and nutritionists scream about! DO NOT EAT IN FRONT OF THE TV. You will shovel it down and not be aware of your consumption! Well, I find it entertains me instead of the food. Think about it. You are sitting at a table with the family and they are eating "normally." You bite, put down your fork, chew your food to dust and must wait before taking another bite. While everybody is busy stuffing their faces (in a normal manner), you get bored watching them. So you eat another bite. Pretty soon, you eat more than you intended and and pay bloody hell for it. (Dumping or just plain nausea.)
When I sit in front of the telly, I take a bite. Put the food down (on a table or something) and get comfortable. Watch a little boob toob, find my trough (bowl, plate, whatever) and have another bite. Perfect. I recognize the full feeling immediately and don't overeat, thereby making myself sick.
Here are my bad tricks:
M & M's: Eat one at a time until I feel "weird" (that is the sugar telling me to STOP)
Chocolate Cake: Consume right before bed so I can sleep off any bad physical feelings, but feel guilty in the morning....Like a one-night stand!
Gelato: Either eat "samples" or buy a small cup and eat until I feel weird and pass it off to someone else.
Soda: Shake it until that carbonation is mostly gone and drink. Tried it with Coca Cola Classic and found it to be dangerous. Too much sugar! Coke Zero works much better. hee hee
Candy bar: take nibbles until weird feeling appears and give bar to kids.
However, I have found some good food choices, too......
SALAD! (or as my kids call it: lettuces) Chew into oblivion. Breaks down more easily than protein (eg meat, chicken, pork) and can generally eat it normally.
Tomatoes, basalmic vinegar and salt. YUM!
Baked potatoes. Broccoli and cheese. Fat free sour cream. NO skin. And Sweet potatoes, plain, no skin.
Fruit. Especially watermellon. Sweet, tasty and basically water! Can eat "normally."
Been lacking in the photo department, too. But I managed to snap off a couple of shots. I still see FAT GIRL. I have lost over 60 pounds and all I see is fat Fat FAT!! See for yourself:
I have not worn those jeans for almost two years. I can put on a bra on the middle hooks that I haven't worn in a looooooooooooong time. My underpants are getting big. And the "jeans" I have had to wear prior to surgery are no longer sung. In fact, they are getting quite loose.
I admit it. It is nice to be baggy instead of screaming tight. Fooling myself that I can wear a particular size if it is a knit (eg pants, shirts made from t-shirt material or jersey).
Oh! Yesterday, I was all jazzed. I was going to try on a pair of pants that I bought a year ago (foolishly thinking I would fit in this size). Excitedly, I grabbed the pants from their hanger and double checked the size. Not only was it one size smaller than I thought I purchased, they were a PETITE! Hello!?! I am 5'8"! I am NOT petite. Sadly, I tossed them to the back of the closet (in the "I will get to that later" pile) and put on my jeans. Damn. I guess I didn't check the label and went by the tag or the hanger size. Like not double checking the expiry date on food when you buy it only to go home and throw it away because it was two days past.
Oh! And I got to wear a jean skirt to church that I haven't seen in quite awhile. I paired it with one of my husbands old dress shirts and some cute peek-a-boo mule heels. One of my sunday school student's told me (in a fit of anger) "You are not beautiful!" I took it as a complement. He is four. I will take it anyway.
